| water's profile飘BlogLists |  Tools  Help |
|
December 11 X'mas is comingX'mas is coming, even though the holiday season feeling didnot touch my heart, even though I always have holiday-hate sydrom, I have to celebrate it no matter what. So weekend would be so busy, Chrismas tree picking, gifts choosing, endless shopping. But what is truly on my mind is " can I go back to china in Chinese New Year?". My mom just wanted me to be at home after I have been absented for 6 chinese new years, my husband and son are planning how to spend the vocation in china, where to go, I am wondering how I can be comfortable while they are away. I cannot get that long vocation for sure, working in a consulting company means no long vacation, no sick day, no holiday. I do admire those ppl who are living in China, they have so many holidays every year, but in America, we are forced to work longer. Sometimes it is ironic to think about it, the purpose of going aboard is to pursue a better life --light and sweet-- but the cruel reality is that, most of the chinese people are struggling from those stress rather than enjoying it.
A friend of mine just bought a house, she was so strict to herself that what she wears every day looked just like those clothes are from 10 years ago. Her children are wearing some used clothes given by other friends. His husband is still wearing a pair of sandal in Dec. Their new house is filled of old shabby furnitures and no fancy decoration at all. And she has no intention to make it looked better. She even feel satisified for her life. I feel sorry for her, she is just 2 years older than me, but I bet she has not bought clothes for ages. Now it is already in the middle of December, they didnot turn their heating on yet. As a result, they have to wear coats at home. She is unbelievable, I can understand why they can afford their house, while I cannot, but I donot adore a life like that, and I wont push myself to have a life like that. Life is short, shouldnot we just enjoy it?? December 01 new job, new life, new homeAll of sudden, I realized that I havenot been here for such a long time. The memory of original purpose of this blog is still fresh, unfortunately, people changed so fast, so do I. I am living in a new house, in a new city, a new country, with a new job. I am struggling between the excitement and deep horror. The emphasis of my life is totally shifted, chatroom seems like from last life, chatting seems not as attractive as before. I bet it is a good change, even though, in some deep part of my heart, I still take those cyber friends very seriously, I still missed the moment when we had a nice stunning conversation. People do have history, chatroom is part of my history, no matter I like it or not. |
|
|
